will always have internalized hate towards my mother for leaving me here
Your breath, your heartbeat, and your soft, soft skin
The gentle rise and dip of your chest as I laid my head on you.
I focused on your heartbeat and I couldn’t help but think,
"This is the most at peace I’ll ever be."
I didn’t know how true that was until now, as I’m going without you.
When I try and rest, I imagine your breath and your heartbeat
Resonating through my entire body, relieving all of my stress
But it translates into worry, hell. All I can do is wish you were here.
- I just want to kiss you.
- I’m spoiled rotten, I need your attention.
- You’re the nicest thing that’s every happened to me.
- and you’re the most beautiful thing that has entered my life.
- Let’s go iceskating and hold hands.
- I want to take pictures with you.
- Come back.
- I’m sorry.
- I’m so sorry.
I remember when
He punched his fingers
Into the wall, missing me
By merely an inch.
He seasoned the wall
With the skin of his fists.
I licked the stain
Just to feel like I was part of him.
1) I want to rent hotel rooms with you and spend more than half our time being outside.
2) I want to get lost while we’re driving because I can’t read maps and you are too stubborn to ask for directions.
3) I want to eat drive-thru food with you on the floor of our first apartment.
4) I want to get drunk in public and have you take me home while I hit on you.
5) I want to go on long adventures with you.
6) I want to go to the movies and make out with you in the back like a couple of over excited teenagers.
7) I want to lay with you under the stars and talk about the future like I’ve got it all planned.
8) I want to break in your arms once in a while because I don’t have it all planned.
9) I want to bore with you with my favorite shows and movies even though you insist it is okay.
10) I want to play video games with you and sulk when I lose.
11) I want to paint you in my poems.
12) I want to dance with you.
13) I want to spend the rest of my life with you, knowing there’s no place else I’d rather be."
13 important things I want you to know. - A (via haillucynation)
i miss you so much